April 5th Daily Reflection

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Brock
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April 5th Daily Reflection

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TRUE BROTHERHOOD

We have not once sought to be one in a family, to be a friend among friends, to be a worker among workers, to be a useful member of society. Always we tried to struggle to the top of the heap, or to hide underneath it. This self-centered behavior blocked a partnership relation with any one of those about us. Of true brotherhood we had small comprehension.
— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 53

This message contained in Step Four was the first one I heard loud and clear; I hadn't seen myself in print before! Prior to my coming into A.A., I knew of no place that could teach me how to become a person among persons. From my very first meeting, I saw people doing just that and I wanted what they had. One of the reasons that I'm a happy, sober alcoholic today is that I'm learning this most important lesson.

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We have not once sought to be one in a family, to be a friend among friends, to be a worker among workers, to be a useful member of society. Always we tried to struggle to the top of the heap, or to hide underneath it. This self-centered behavior blocked a partnership relation with any one of those about us. Of true brotherhood we had small comprehension.
— TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 53

... I hadn't seen myself in print before! Prior to my coming into A.A., I knew of no place that could teach me how to become a person among persons. ... I saw people doing just that and I wanted what they had.
I don't know how much I have said this before, but at first this passage angered me! OF COURSE I was a giving person and ALWAYS sought these things! I looked for them under the pile and on top of the pile! But importantly, here some 11+ years later, I see it now. The word "blocked" is the important thing... I was blind to the realities of my relations. In fact, my moment of clarity came when I saw Love bouncing off of my bubble. My son was over to raid the fridge for lunch and on his way out the door, we exchanged I love you's. I FELT and I KNEW that my love was bouncing off my bubble too! I was not connecting and my EGO was what was in the way. I didn't know that at the time, but it was within a week that I began my calls to the AA Hotline. It might have been that very night! That moment is seared into my brain. I WANTED "true brotherhood" and "to be one in a family, to be a friend among friends," but I had been looking in all the wrong places.

I am so grateful that unconditional love has been what I wanted for myself because it was the first thing I sought to give others. First in the rooms of AA and then with family, friends and society. I am able to Love now. I am able to BE loved now. I Know that my Ego blocks me and humility is my Friend - my glasses in the blindness. =ugeek :shock: =geek
Cling to the thought that, in God's hands, the dark past is the greatest possession you have - the key to life and happiness for others. With it you can avert death and misery for them. page 124 BB
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