Good morning folks. I have a quick question - We work from home so we have a separate office side in the house with a bathroom that gets used by us, my sister who is staff and clients.
I have a little book I call " daily runts" where I would write little upsets that happens occasionally. This is a funny little book as it is printed with all sorts of direct funny little statements such as You are or think you are such an idiot, driving me crazy, a wanker, outrageous, soft in the head, etc etc. Just very direct little sayings where I can just tick the box which sort of describes what I feel toward that person at that particular moment. This morning I found my little book in the office bathroom and I felt upset as this is for my personal use, contains personal hurts and is not intended at " toilet reading ".
I asked my hubby whether he put my little book there where everyone could read what I wrote. He came back saying oh shux I'm sorry I didn't realize you've used it. I was reading some stuff in the back of the book today.
That is a bunch of BS. There is thank God only 1 inscription at the moment but it is my personal feelings at a particular moment. I share everything with my family but dear Lord. Surely I have a right to 1 private little book where I can be honest with myself without someone else reading about it?
Would that count as a valid upset or should it go down on my resentment list in step 4 and if so, please give me an idea of what the character defect could be that I should look at.
Much appreciated, thank you and have an awesome day.
Mwah
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Noels xxx
Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?
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Re: Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?
Similar situation. In my early sobriety a private conversation was overheard and repeated. I was angry until I realised my anger stemmed from embarrassment that my judgemental nature had been laid bare. Added judgemental to my defects list and worked on that. Glad now that the situation arose.
Don't know exactly where I am going but I'm on my way and it's already much better than where I've been.
Re: Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?
All we can control is our own behavior. Hide the book under your mattress.
I was really worried hubby would get into my 4th Step so I kept it in my purse ~ a place where he respects my space.
Remember we made them crazy for years... you change and it will all change. Might want to get him some Alanon literature!

I was really worried hubby would get into my 4th Step so I kept it in my purse ~ a place where he respects my space.
Remember we made them crazy for years... you change and it will all change. Might want to get him some Alanon literature!




Step 6 is "AA's way of stating, the best possible attitude one can take in order to make a beginning on this lifetime job... with most of them we shall have to be content with patient improvement." 12&12 Step Six, p.65
Re: Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?


I have however very nicely told hubby that he keeps his fingers off my little book.



Have an awesome day and please send some more ideas on possible character defects relating to this particular incident if it comes to mind. It can only help me.
Chat again later
Mwah xxx
Noels
Re: Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?
Privacy is important and it is our responsibility. I would say that your "staff" should understand that the "boss" has things and they should respect that as it is about the bottom line----- clients or whatever.
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Re: Would this be a valid upset or a resentment?
I think this would have me shopping for a library of funny loo books.
Wrap your little book with a ribbon and attach a note that says "private"... Once I wrote on page once, "For those whose eyes dare to partake, will surely feel the bite of the snake!" And I thought it was the words that would bite, not me. My brain was like "That'll teach 'em! They will read my resentment against them before I have a chance to clean it up!" Ohh hahaha - but, it still had a way of eating at me.
Step 10 advises us to tell someone else and you have added it to your written list. If it continues to bug you, call that gal who was hearing your 5th or another trusted female. Chances are they have a similar experience AND you might be helping them with your call!
Wrap your little book with a ribbon and attach a note that says "private"... Once I wrote on page once, "For those whose eyes dare to partake, will surely feel the bite of the snake!" And I thought it was the words that would bite, not me. My brain was like "That'll teach 'em! They will read my resentment against them before I have a chance to clean it up!" Ohh hahaha - but, it still had a way of eating at me.
Step 10 advises us to tell someone else and you have added it to your written list. If it continues to bug you, call that gal who was hearing your 5th or another trusted female. Chances are they have a similar experience AND you might be helping them with your call!
Step 6 is "AA's way of stating, the best possible attitude one can take in order to make a beginning on this lifetime job... with most of them we shall have to be content with patient improvement." 12&12 Step Six, p.65