I had a desire to stop forever and the idea of coddling or consoling myself (either my 'Mr. Feelings' or my 'Mr. Intellect') with the idea of possibility having a drink tomorrow did not interest me, and yet I had yet to ever hear anything about "the alcoholic mind" while trying to not take the first drink one-day-at-a-time. So after being told that was why I could not stop drinking and stay stopped forever, I came to A.A. (not to "AA") because (and as an eventual friend later explained) "my alleged mind was out to get me", so to speak, and drinking again was always inevitable....an excerpt from the pamphlet on AA's 24 hour plan:
"...We concentrate on keeping sober just the current twenty-four hours. We simply try to get through one day at a time without a drink...neither yield nor resist...merely put off taking that particular drink until tomorrow…"
I have no argument with or complaint against anyone who actually can "Don't take the first drink, one-day-at-a-time" as often suggested in "AA", but I would have left A.A. in tears if that had ever been suggested to me while already knowing I could never do that for any longer than about three days. The people who first helped me understood, however, so "Don't drink" was never suggested by anyone. Instead, it was suggested that I "read, study, absorb and learn to do what is in our book as if your very life depends upon doing so"...and it did.