Five.

[Feeya]

My name is Feeya and I am an alcoholic.
I feel calm and okay.
I met my sponsor last night and did my fifth step. I was so scared, so full off fear and so ashamed.
At first it felt like I could not get my words out. Since I have never been to confession I had never been in a situation where I had to confess. I was shaking and crying and all I wanted to do was go out and drink, even though I knew I was going to feel better afterwards.

As soon as I was done, as soon as I had told her everything I had written down I felt SO good.
It felt like I had put my past in order, like I went from this chaotic life with no real purpose to finally being able to let go and move on.
I always thought I had already let go of most things and I thought that admitting some things to myself was enough to be honest. It wasn't.
I am so grateful.

[ann2]

So moving Feeya. Big big hugs!! Congratulations

Ann

[whipping post]

That's awesome Feeya!!

[Stepchild]

Once we have taken this step, withholding nothing, we are delighted.
Step Five

You are living proof...Congratulations!!...Keep moving forward!

[D'oh]

Great Job, Great Step.

Step 6 and 7 are very short steps (in print in the BB) But very large steps into the unknown In life. I missed that my first time through the steps.

[Brock]

Very well done, and great encouragement to those who may still be “balking” at 4 & 5.

[Spirit Flower]

[Feeya]

Thanks everyone and thank you D'oh for the warning!

[Stepchild]

There is a fantastic book called...Drop the Rock....That focuses on steps 6 and 7 that was recommended to me by an oldtimer...It's from Hazeldon....A recommendation that I pass on.

[avaneesh912]

Hope you have a good understanding of what you need to work on. For me it was totally male chauvinistic up-bringing and in-tolerance, impatience to name a few. Good luck with your journey. Mark H talk on 10 and 11 was a great piece of work for me that aided me at this juncture where he talks about immediately jumping into 10 and 11 and start practicing the principles of the program right away and using the disciplines making amends (cleaning the past).

[Feeya]

There is a fantastic book called...Drop the Rock....That focuses on steps 6 and 7 that was recommended to me by an oldtimer...It's from Hazeldon....A recommendation that I pass on.

Thank you for the recommendation! I will see if there is a german translation to that. I find it very hard to study and truly understand Literatur in english.

[Feeya]

Hope you have a good understanding of what you need to work on. For me it was totally male chauvinistic up-bringing and in-tolerance, impatience to name a few. Good luck with your journey. Mark H talk on 10 and 11 was a great piece of work for me that aided me at this juncture where he talks about immediately jumping into 10 and 11 and start practicing the principles of the program right away and using the disciplines making amends (cleaning the past).

Thank you for sharing. And yes, I am fully aware of the things I need to work on. Impatience is one for me as well!

[PaigeB]

There is a fantastic book called...Drop the Rock....That focuses on steps 6 and 7 that was recommended to me by an oldtimer...It's from Hazeldon....A recommendation that I pass on.

I just got a 7 year medallion last Monday and I am in the process of reading this book very slowly. I feel, for the first time, like I am actually working on and understanding Steps 6 & 7.

[Stepchild]

I just got a 7 year medallion last Monday and I am in the process of reading this book very slowly. I feel, for the first time, like I am actually working on and understanding Steps 6 & 7.

That's awesome!.....And Happy Birthday!!

[ezdzit247]

Thank you for sharing your ESH on Step 5, Feeya.

I identify.....