I think I need to dive into this program and make it my lifestyle. I find I still sit in meetings and critique rather than find similarities and hope.
I just took the above from your own posting. If insurance is covering the cost, please go. But I always remember a lady around our area use to say, her 3rd trip to the treatment facility did her. At the end, they gave a Big book and a bill for 38K and asked her to go to AA. She use to joke it was the most expensive Big Book she ever bought.
There will be lot of back in the treatment centres whose common thread will be I stopped going to meetings or I just did 1 2 and 3 and then something happened then I slipped.
Its in the rest of the steps. Putting down the character defects on paper, looking at it with the help of fellow AAers, performing the rest of the steps......
If you look at the promises, it says "If we are painstaking about this phase of our development
" and this phase the book talks about is, not just going to meetings but, its the period between 9th and the rest of the steps. And at the end there is a statement "They will always materialize if we work for them".
Just by talking that ABCs will work does not suffice, we need to put some effort.
Good luck with the stint at the treatment centre.
You cannot solve a problem from the same consciousness that created. You must see the world anew.