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by catcar
Mon Nov 10, 2014 9:43 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Nervous about third step
Replies: 26
Views: 11079

Re: Nervous about third step

It's strange that this seems like a bigger deal to me than actually realizing and admitting that I'm alcoholic. I thought that was going to be the big decision. Truly, it appears that this is the big decision....choosing to ACTUALLY WORK THE PROGRAM. It's actually seeming really cool to me now inste...
by catcar
Sat Nov 08, 2014 1:13 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Nervous about third step
Replies: 26
Views: 11079

Re: Nervous about third step

Wow, thanks for all the I sight. I think I'm just a little nervous because it's like e really jumping in
by catcar
Thu Nov 06, 2014 7:43 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Nervous about third step
Replies: 26
Views: 11079

Nervous about third step

So, my sponsor mentioned doing my third step in a place that might be special to me. She said that she did hers with her sponsor in a chapel she really likes. I did not realize that this would be such an intimate and emotional step. I feel like I'm going to break down into tears and I just didn't ex...
by catcar
Sat Nov 01, 2014 9:41 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Unable to go to meetings!!!!
Replies: 29
Views: 6882

Re: Unable to go to meetings!!!!

"I know psychiatrists in AA. Famous ones. And priests & doctors. Dr. Bob S. didn't say we needed a psychiatrist, he said we need the 12 Steps" I believe in the program and the 12 steps but also believe in still seeing my psychiatrist. He supports my program but can control my medication along with i...
by catcar
Thu Oct 30, 2014 5:33 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Tonight's my first meeting
Replies: 22
Views: 5480

Re: Tonight's my first meeting

Welcome! I agree that trying multiple meetings will help you find one that's right. I have my favorite meeting, but have found others that give me a lot too. Each day , each meeting, each experience is different and if you just keep coming back you will keep on the right path. You are an inspiration...
by catcar
Thu Oct 30, 2014 5:25 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Unable to go to meetings!!!!
Replies: 29
Views: 6882

Re: Unable to go to meetings!!!!

I am also unable to make it to many meetings but for different reasons. I think there are on line meetings on this site that operate like a chat room. I only have internet access on my phone so those are difficult for me but maybe that will work for you? I have relied on this forum a lot because I d...
by catcar
Thu Oct 30, 2014 5:08 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely
Replies: 24
Views: 4739

Re: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely

I am very blessed. I do not believe that I'm worth it yet but I believe my son is. I'm hoping that working this program gets me to believe in myself
by catcar
Wed Oct 22, 2014 6:48 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely
Replies: 24
Views: 4739

Re: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely

It is my son that keeps me going because I believe suicide is a chicken way out and that it would ultimately only hurt my son. It is just so hard because I get so down at times and I feel completely hopeless. I'm having a less crappy day today so I'm not feeling as hopeless...for now. Why does recov...
by catcar
Mon Oct 20, 2014 4:55 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely
Replies: 24
Views: 4739

Re: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely

I can only get to 3 or 4 meetings a week because of my son and my work schedule. I do have a sponsor and we are now meeting once a week to read the big book and once a week we have a check in call. We are starting to do the steps now. I have called other AA people but mostly I end up just leaving un...
by catcar
Sun Oct 19, 2014 7:30 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely
Replies: 24
Views: 4739

If it wasn't for my son I'd give up completely

This is not working. I lost my family so I stopped drinking so I didn't go nuts about that. Then I lost my friends because they all drink. AA people were around a little bit but they seem to be excited at first and then disappear. I did activities more with my son but all the parents seem to drink. ...
by catcar
Sat Oct 11, 2014 12:51 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Want to give up
Replies: 28
Views: 10885

Re: Want to give up

I am going to read this more than a few times as I deal with this work situation. I have been trying to go to meetings at the beginning of the week early in the day and that helps me be calm a little. On days I can't do that, I will read some of what you all have said and make that my meeting. I get...
by catcar
Thu Oct 09, 2014 10:59 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Having a hard time
Replies: 19
Views: 4685

Re: Having a hard time

Thank you all for always responding and giving me wise words to consider. I read things on this board often and it had been a huge part of my recovery. It was finding this site and posting on here that got me to show up at my first meeting. I have good days and bad days. It is hard for me to get to ...
by catcar
Thu Oct 09, 2014 10:55 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: Alcoholic - still drinking
Replies: 66
Views: 14249

Re: Alcoholic - still drinking

I was fighting it and did not think that it would help me but the only thing that is keeping me going is working with my sponsor and the spiritual and thinking aspects of the program. I know that I do not have the will power to stop on my own. I have a couple of friends who stopped drinking at the s...
by catcar
Thu Oct 09, 2014 8:59 pm
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: Not Enough Meetings?
Replies: 11
Views: 7799

Re: Not Enough Meetings?

That is amazing that you were able to do that! I wish I could go to more meetings because they help me so much! I have had many people tell me that I have to make my sobriety my first priority. That seems almost impossible as a single mom...especially when I do not want my 6 year old to understand t...
by catcar
Thu Oct 09, 2014 8:44 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Want to give up
Replies: 28
Views: 10885

Re: Want to give up

I really feel like this is true of myself...I feel like I am not aware of my options. I know, deep inside, that I am smart and capable of so much more that I am achieving right now. It is this alcoholic mind that I have that is making me have a hard time getting past this.