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by RachelG
Sat May 23, 2020 7:43 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Running the show
Replies: 12
Views: 1084

Re: Running the show

Yes! Today I do! My chair just asked me to run a meeting. I was scared because these were highly valued people for me...smart...courageous...good people. But I made sure to encourage and support them all and today I can do that. It’s not all about me!! (On a good day). I almost cried afterward. It’s...
by RachelG
Wed May 20, 2020 11:33 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Running the show
Replies: 12
Views: 1084

Re: Running the show

Good idea! I put pen to paper and got fear (worry I’ll make a fool of myself or somehow success at work/promotion means I’m going to go back to the old me in motive too and drink), selfish/selfpity (thinking too much about myself in the situation and not what I can bring to it) and dishonest (believ...
by RachelG
Wed May 20, 2020 7:25 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Running the show
Replies: 12
Views: 1084

Re: Running the show

Thanks! So true. I do my morning inventory and evening inventory each night and have prayed so often about work and asked for inspiration and to know the right way. My work is often hard and stressful by its nature. But this one area seems to be blocked somehow! No answers yet...
by RachelG
Wed May 20, 2020 5:38 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Running the show
Replies: 12
Views: 1084

Re: Running the show

Humility! I did use to think I was quite something. On the fast track to success at work. Wanted to be the youngest chairman they ever saw. Lots of degrees and certificates papering my wall. And according to me, God was for fairy tale believers, and I did my own success. And then came alcoholism. I ...
by RachelG
Wed May 20, 2020 3:41 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Running the show
Replies: 12
Views: 1084

Running the show

What is the difference between “running the show” as talked about on pages 60-61 and running a department at work? How does one try not to “arrange the lights” but still lead in life if that is part of your job. How do you speak up at work to banter ideas and concepts and not be “demanding”?
by RachelG
Mon May 11, 2020 5:18 am
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: First sponsor but not going well
Replies: 31
Views: 5927

Re: First sponsor but not going well

Hello! Boy do I identify. I didn't understand the sponsor relationship AT ALL when I came to AA. I just looked around for the oldest lady in the room...thinking she must know what she is doing because she has gray hair! Lol. She was lovely and was one of my first AA relationships with someone that I...
by RachelG
Sat May 09, 2020 8:45 am
Forum: Big Book Study
Topic: Big Book hard to follow
Replies: 20
Views: 3026

Re: Big Book hard to follow

Just like everything else, meeting shares is something that changed with working the steps. When I first started the steps with my sponsor, she told me that she goes to meetings to carry the message to someone that might need it like she needed it. I was sure she was not telling the whole truth. Aft...
by RachelG
Fri May 08, 2020 5:56 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: Trying again
Replies: 3
Views: 541

Re: Trying again

Hello! I love the math...probably because I'm someone that likes data and numbers too. So it was such a confusing situation to me that the tool of "self-knowledge" didn't work for me! Why could I just not realize or remember not to drink?? I had all this data that it was unhealthy and odd behavior a...
by RachelG
Thu May 07, 2020 7:23 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: work leadership
Replies: 6
Views: 609

Re: work leadership

Thanks!! Yep. When I inventoried I came up with fear (worry what might happen), self-delusion (thinking something is happening that isn’t), and selfish (thinking so much about myself I was disregarding others. You all were right. There is enormous fear about stepping into a leadership role and being...
by RachelG
Thu May 07, 2020 8:32 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: work leadership
Replies: 6
Views: 609

work leadership

All- Does anyone have some experience with good recovery and years of sobriety...when life gets good...and then your competitive fast-paced work environment starts to notice you and you find yourself being asked to be in positions of leadership? The office politics? The leadership decisions? I'm fin...
by RachelG
Thu May 07, 2020 8:12 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: New to e-AA, but have some experience with AA already
Replies: 5
Views: 610

Re: New to e-AA, but have some experience with AA already

Hello! I really identify with going to meetings, drinking again, repeat....I did that for about a year! I was so confused because I had done a lot of reading and I was going to meetings everyday and calling people. I had become despondent that AA didn't work for me. I thought I had resistant alcohol...
by RachelG
Tue May 05, 2020 12:44 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: Not at rock bottom ..but asking questions
Replies: 42
Views: 2984

Re: Not at rock bottom ..but asking questions

Hello! Boy do I identify! My life was really good and I had had a lot of success. From the outside no one would have believed that internal struggle that you are describing. It was like a war going on inside! I remember once my husband, a normal drinker, said to me, "It's not how much you drink that...
by RachelG
Tue May 05, 2020 4:03 am
Forum: The 12 Steps
Topic: Making amends
Replies: 35
Views: 3193

Re: Making amends

My sponsor helped me broaden the idea of amends to use a definition: Anyone I owe a change of behavior to

THAT was just about everyone!
by RachelG
Sat May 02, 2020 5:46 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: Unmanageability of step 1
Replies: 16
Views: 1515

Re: Unmanageability of step 1

For me, the answer to this question came when my sponsor explained that only the first step deals with drinking...the other 11 deal with living. I definitely needed to stop drinking. But to stay stopped I needed a plan to start living. So, in hindsight, my life was unmanageable. But when I came to A...