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by liz
Wed Apr 02, 2014 7:47 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

Hi. Thank you for all the support and suggestions and patience. i am probably repeating the same issues sorry. I am doing the program quickly. I just have to go over step 12 with a sponsor. I've been listening to the joe and Charlie BB study thanks to one of your recommendation and I like the way th...
by liz
Mon Mar 31, 2014 3:49 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

Well I gave it a good try but this thing just wont work for me. Im not even entirely sure HP can remove my defects. Ive been dealing with disabling anxiety disorder for few years now and no amount of praying or even drugs helped. I'm also slightly upset with my sponsor situation for having to drop m...
by liz
Thu Mar 27, 2014 6:11 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

my sponsor just had to back away due to relapse.
I will need to find a new sponsor asap.

If you dont mind I will post here for support.

thanks
by liz
Thu Mar 27, 2014 5:04 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

These replies have been very helpful and clarifying. So basically it takes time, I can live with that. What was nagging on my mind is that I am about to go to step 12 and the book says 10,11 and 12 are maintenance steps but I have yet to have the spiritual experience at this point. my sponsor tells ...
by liz
Wed Mar 26, 2014 12:04 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

its late now and Im going to re read all the great advice on this thread later in the day. I really appreciate it, thanks One question that stood out to me was "Do you really believe that there is a Higher Power who can take these things away from you?" And if im being totally honest I dont think so...
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 11:49 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: tips for living in undesirable environment
Replies: 12
Views: 2591

Re: tips for living in undesirable environment

Thank you so much for the tip and info about rides to meeting. And thanks everyone for the warm welcome.
I have been generally just stayed quiet when on one of her tangents, but I will try your technique.
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 12:37 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

Hi Ann, I did the inventory in the chart style you are talking about with how it affected my personal,ambition,security,etc. I understood how I was self seeking ,dishonest and afraid in many of issues. I did step 5 and read them with my sponsor.. and step 6 is where the confusion begins we are ready...
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 12:06 pm
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

I was honest in step 4. I didn't have THAT many shameful things, the worst was stolen money. The most damage I did luckily was to myself. If Im being totally honest here and I don't mean offense at all but I think what Bill had was some born again experience... This is a rare thing to happen.. The f...
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 11:45 am
Forum: For the Newcomer
Topic: This program is confusing me
Replies: 57
Views: 12643

Re: This program is confusing me

Thank you so much for all the helpful replies. "What's your specific "symptom"?" White knucking through cravings and none of the promises have been filled. Not yet being in a place of neutrality towards drinking. I still have all the fear,selfishness,depressed thoughts,etc so this tells me something...
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 11:40 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: tips for living in undesirable environment
Replies: 12
Views: 2591

Re: tips for living in undesirable environment

Hi. yes I am working on the panic and it is making strides. But hanging around all day out with public transportation is not something I want to do right now. aside from that, the main issue is I lost my job, my car and dont have much extra money anyways. I'm focusing on recovering though so at leas...
by liz
Tue Mar 25, 2014 12:06 am
Forum: Discussions
Topic: tips for living in undesirable environment
Replies: 12
Views: 2591

Re: tips for living in undesirable environment

thanks lali I will have to look into it. I'm in Ontario,Canada and doing a quick search the womens halfway house nearby deals with sentenced adults. I will have to do some research. If anyone has other tips please by all means I am listening. I am looking into meditating or mindfulness, reading a bo...
by liz
Mon Mar 24, 2014 4:47 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: tips for living in undesirable environment
Replies: 12
Views: 2591

Re: tips for living in undesirable environment

A halfway house wouldn't work for me, I don't have trouble with the law.

I have panic disorder and can barely take public transport so getting around to several meetings throughout the city to spend time likely won't happen.

Thank you so much all for the replies. I guess I have to suck it up.
by liz
Sun Mar 23, 2014 4:18 pm
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: Is it ok to have 2 sponsors
Replies: 6
Views: 5305

Re: Is it ok to have 2 sponsors

thanks.
What i did was contacted the second person but she just ended up chatting with me, I told her I had a sponsor but just wanted a different perspective so it worked out ok.
Problem is now I am overthinking program and making it more complicated I think.
by liz
Sun Mar 23, 2014 2:08 pm
Forum: Discussions
Topic: tips for living in undesirable environment
Replies: 12
Views: 2591

tips for living in undesirable environment

hi. i am new to recovery about a month, done steps 1 thru 11 and have not any real length of abstinence yet. my issue is that I am living with a family member that is like a toxic black cloud of negativity, complaints and when irritable or frustrated(which is 50% of the time) quick to point out my f...
by liz
Sun Mar 23, 2014 11:27 am
Forum: Sponsorship
Topic: Is it ok to have 2 sponsors
Replies: 6
Views: 5305

Re: Is it ok to have 2 sponsors

Thanks for the replies.

I need to find consistency in my praying or meditating which i also have not had..